Sunday, May 13, 2012

Mother's Day

Today was a wonderful day spending time with family. Every Sunday we are lucky to have a home cooked meal made by my Mom. Today, everyone did their part and we put together a feast for Mother's day. My Mom couldn't stay out of the kitchen and had to contribute something. We limited her to steaming the broccoli. I am so grateful for my Mom and the example that she is to me. I hope that one day I can be a mother like her. 

A lot of people have asked after everything that we did, how were we able to get pregnant. With some of my posts at the end of last year, I led you to believe that we were going to move onto IVF. And that was the plan. We left the meeting with the doctor knowing that was our next step. I was ready to spend our savings on getting our baby right then and there. My sweet husband told me a few days later he didn't feel good about it. I was crushed, I had my heart set on a baby and we had been told IVF was our only option. Bob mentioned a miracle baby or maybe going with adoption. So after a few days, I realized I would be ok with starting the adoption process. I told Bob I was going to get the information and we could start working on the paper work. And once again, he told me he didn't feel good about it. I felt as though I was left with no options. He sweetly kept telling me that we would have a miracle. I couldn't accept that a miracle would happen when we had worked so hard for the last 2 years with the doctor in trying to get our miracle. 

I like knowing what the next step is, and being able to work towards it. This was right around Christmas and the first of January. I knew that if we both didn't feel good about our next step, we wouldn't be able to go forward with anything. I told myself I was going to get healthy, get back into my exercise routine, and give up white flour and sugar and all processed foods. (This would be my next step and distraction, until Bob came around to IVF or adoption :) 

After day 28 of my cycle I always take a pregnancy test. If I don't, I start playing mind games. Why am I late? Am I pregnant? And so forth. So on Friday, March 2nd - I was 29 days. I took the test and waited out the time like the last 100 times. But this time, I saw something I had never seen. There was a 2nd line. I panicked, freaked out, started crying, and broke open another test. (I have an unlimited supply.)  While the second test was in process, I ran into the bedroom crying and jumped on the bed to wake Bob up. He was in a panic until he was awake enough to realize what I was saying. What a special morning it was for us. Here was our miracle!!! I am so grateful for my husband who listened to the Spirit and was inspired for us to just wait. I'm sorry to say I was so obsessed and I'd say self absorbed in my trial, that I didn't take the time to listen. 

On my lunch break I ran to the Fertility Center to get my blood drawn. And for the first time ever the sweet lady called me with good news to let me know that I was in fact pregnant. They scheduled me for my first ultrasound a few weeks later. Because we had been working with them for the last year and were figuring out IVF, they let me come back for ultrasounds until week 10, when I was released to my OB. I love everyone who works at the Utah Fertility Center. They were so kind, loving, and I knew that they cared about me and my family. It was a bitter- sweet day when I left after my final appointment with Dr. Foulk. 

Today was a special day in the fact that I could reflect on my journey to becoming a mother. Baby Barber isn't here yet, but I worry about our little baby everyday. I pray for our baby's health and strength and can't wait to see this baby in a few months. 

And here's a glimpse of our little baby tot waving hello to the world. (This is from our last appointment with Dr. Foulk @ 10 weeks, and our baby was moving like crazy.) 




10 comments:

Hillary said...

Thanks for sharing your story. I am beyond happy for you and Bob. There is hardly anyone that is more deserving than you two. I just wish I still lived in the ward so we could share stories. I can't wait to hear what you are having and I hope you and your miracle baby continue to be healthy.

Kaitlyn and Kyle Shelley said...

What a sweet miracle. I am in tears reading this. I am so happy for you and Bob. How amazing to finally get that 2nd line on the pregnancy test. I can only imagine what you felt. Your baby is already adorable and you will be the best mother. Happy Mother's Day Alyse!

Megan said...

SOoooo excited for you two!! That ultrasound photo is amazing, you can see all it's fingers and everything already! :)

Kristen and Andrew said...

Oh my word!! I didn't know that you were expecting!! YAYAYAY!! I am so excited for you! CONGRATS!!! :)

The Quilters said...

Oh my goodness I am so excited for you and Bob, so excited! You two are going to be the best parents. I can't wait to see this little one of yours. Congratulations!

Danielle Bates said...

This post made me so happy! I seriously want to take pictures of your babe. Please let me. I have two photoshoots lined up before yours arrives so hopefully we can make it happen. So happy for you Alice!

Radiant Red said...

I am so incredibly thrilled for you! I know that you will be an amazing mother, and that you are ready are. How amazing to get your little one without IVF. Congrats!

Anderson Family said...

Alyse I love you. thanks for sharing your story. one of my friends told me her & husband were told they would not be able to have kids and they began the adoption process she then became pregnant. (in fact she is now pregnate with her third)when i heard her story i thought of you and began to pray that you would have a miracle too.. I was so excited to hear your news it was as if my prayers were answered too. love ya

lacey said...

omg i am in tears right now! i fill so bad i dint know about all your struggles but i am so happy for you both!! i will keep you "3" ;) in our prayers. good luck and i hope all is well

Kristin said...

YEAH!! We love Dr. Foulk! Congratulations on your sweet little miracle. Oh my goodness, I'm so glad you said hello on my blog today. I hope you have a wonderful pregnancy. :) :)